Monday, November 28, 2005

Wrote this 2:30 am of November 25. La akong internet card kasi nun....


Kailangan ko lang talaga tong isulat.

It’s 2:30am, I just got back from 70’s bistro. Aside from a short msg I sent, this is the first thing I did when I got home.

Tonight was serendipitous… I saw someone I never thought I’d be seeing again. I was with jon, lo, jv and candz sa 70’s watching Noel Cabangon, ng tinuro ni Jon ang isang babae na kakarating lang. I looked and saw her, I thought she was somewhere in the middle east with her husband and two kids.

I can honestly say, that we were both happily surprised to see each other. Seeing her brought forth, feelings that I thought had died down a LONG time ago. Apparently, it didn’t really die down. Seeing her was like a gust of wind that fanned embers long thought dead, back to flames… Thinking about it right now, it didn’t hit me immediately back then, but a few songs or minutes later, things came crashing into me. The feelings I felt for her back then(or I so I thought) long thought dead, were suddenly being felt again. What I feel for THE GIRL(as I have mentioned in my previous post) is still there, the same, but what I felt for 70’s(let us call her 70’s to avoid confusion) is different. Raw and powerful would be two words that would describe what I felt for 70’s. What I feel for THE GIRL is by no means less powerful, but with 70’s it was raw(as I would like to describe it) as compared to THE GIRL which has been refined over time.

Hayyy…. Eto na lang muna… Magrereply pa ako sa kanya.

Salamat Noel. =)

Monday, November 14, 2005

Had a tiring day yesterday. I was an instant production assistant for the JVP benefit concert.

It started when I passed by the JVP office last thursday, because i had nothing to do. When I got there ate Jo was the only one in the office, we talked for a while, when the conversation went to what I was doing now. I told her that I'm just resting after the board exam, so she asked me if I wanted to volunteer for the concert. I asked her if there's anything i can do where I don't need to dress up, so she told that they still need a production assistant. I wanted to see how it was in the backstage during concerts so i agreed. That was how I became one.

Basically, all I did was do some errands for the director and the stage manager, tell the performers that they're next. DId a lot of walking or sometimes running(while my ankle wasn't fully healed yet, it hurts like hell today) and I didn't get to see the concert. I got home around 2am earlier. I was so tired i fell asleep in the couch. I woke up at around noon.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

It's been a long time since my last post. I almost forgot i had a blog. But suddenly i had the urge to write, we'll see what I'll end up writing.

A lot has happened since then: my JVP year is over, went on the GMA(Great Mindanao Adventure, according to Joey), met new friends, studied for the Board Exam(first time I really studied, i visited the library for a few days then decided it was WAY better to study in starbucks katipunan, thanks to all our, ummm.... according to dax "inspirations"), took and passed the Board Exam (engineer na ako!!!!!!).
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I texted Jon, a week ago "I had an epiphany/revelation regarding her... kwento ko next time na uminom tayo."

Epiphany/Revelation: I can't seriously pursue or go out with a girl unless I have resolved/moved on from THE GIRL.

THE GIRL: Knew HER since college, I wouldn't want to call it love at first sight, but it's almost the same. When I first met HER, SHE had a boyfriend then. Several boyfriends after, I still haven't said anything(sa kanya lang ako nattorpe...). Sabi sa akin ni yayie, "ang dami dami mo ngang chicks, sa kanya ka pa rin babalik" Yup, yayie was so right....

MOVING ON: Since I wanted to resolve/move on, I decided to tell her.

WHAT HAPPENED: We went out, she had some free time so we decided to meet up. So there we were, catching up, nag-aasaran, when she told me she just entered a relationship. Well, that's life for you. Of course, i felt bad, REALLY BAD... I ended up not telling anything I wanted to tell her. This is the second time it happened... The first time was when i was about to leave for my JVP area, back then she found someone she was "willing to spend the rest of her life with". After we parted i texted Jon, "every time i gathered enough courage to tell her di natutuloy, dahil meron na sya..."

That's life...

Kaya pala ako nagsulat... bitter...

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I seem to be spending so much on books after my board exam. I bought the hard bound copy of Knife of Dreams by Robert Jordan, the 11th book of the wheel of time series and Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami. Finished those two already, started reading Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami. Haven't started reading yet short stories collection of Kafka and Kipling.

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Next time na ulit. ;-)