The past week I had three Christmas parties, one was for JVP local com, the other one was for the University and the other one was for the program we were handling. Mukhang masaya, pero nakakapagod, in each party meron akong trabaho. Assigned to do this, do that, I did enjoy, but not as much as i wanted to.

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In the last Christmas party that I mentioned, the one for the program we were handling, I had a big mess. I forgot to finalize, the venue. Shit happens. My supervisor was really mad at me. But, if there's anyone more mad at me than her, it would be no one else but me. In all my years handling events, activities, projects during my college years, NEVER as in NEVER have I made such a big mistake as overlooking something so simple as finalizing the venue. I really felt bad that day. My perfect record of never having made a mistake in handling events, activities or project has been tarnished. As I've said, shit happens. Ate Ines, one of our formation staff in JVP, told me that I really must have been tired with all the work I've been doing.
Thinking on what she said, I realized, that i can't do or take on as many jobs as I had when I was still in college. Iba yung pagod, I was wrong to think it would be the same.

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No regrets. One of the things I've been firm about, is about having no regrets. I really love what I am doing right now, I believe in what we do and stand for, even if my friends find it difficult, but if circumstances take me away from it. I'd have no regrets.

It's been almost seven months since i came to my area of assignment, tagal na... 3 more months and then my JVP year would be over. Knowing that there's only three more months to go, I feel both sad and happy. Sad that in three months time, I'd be leaving Cagayan de Oro, my officemates, the students and everyone else I met here. I can say that, CdO would always be an important part of my life. At the same time, I know in three months time, I'd be back with my friends that I left when I volunteered, back with my family whom I do miss (even though I didn't think that I'd miss them, back to seeing her again.

Enough senti shit for the meantime, I still have to focus on what I'm doing here and enjoy the rest of my remaining months for my JVP year.

But then, I can't help not thinking what would happen after march...

It's been so long since I last wrote here.

I've just had a realization...

I now speak bisaya much more fluently(not as fluent as i want it to be) than pangalatok or much better known an as pangasinense. I was once asked to say some words in pangasinense, to my surprise all i can utter were a few common words...